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Someone I love has died.
You are permitted to grieve, hard and for a long time. Jesus wept at a grave He was about to empty, which settles for ever whether tears show a lack of faith. Christians grieve differently from those with no hope, but we do grieve. Do not let anyone rush you through it, do not make big decisions this year if you can avoid it, eat and sleep, and let people carry things for you. The hope is not that the loss is small; it is that it is not final.
Go and see for yourself
Jesus wept.
John 11:35
But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope.
1 Thessalonians 4:13
The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
Psalm 34:18
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
Revelation 21:4